Sometimes I think people who have a sibling of the same gender take it for granted. I can only imagine just how nice it must be to have a sister to adventure with. Sure I love my brothers, but I highly doubt that either one of them would want to go clothing shopping with me! Being with my aunt yesterday was pretty darn close to sister-like for me. She and I have always been close! I thoroughly enjoy the time I can spend with her! She is fun, adventurous, silly, serious, crazy, and a fantastic person to confide in. We are relatively close in age (I am pretty sure there are 11 years that separate us), much like my own girls who are 7 years apart. It was fun to trek to DC and back home again with her, singing to the 80's music, laughing at silly things, talking about our teenaged crushes, and finding the positives in many situations that could have rendered me frustrated and over anxious while driving nearly 8 hours in one day. It was the kind of adventure that memories are made of!!!
As I said, it has been a little over 12 hours since I got back home. Although I have this time to spend with my husband, free to come and go as we please, I can't help but feel a bit lonely that neither one of my girls is here. It isn't like I am never without my girls, but this is different. While I constantly miss the oldest when she isn't here, I always have the youngest to lean on! When the youngest is away at camp or on her one night every other weekend sleepover at her dad's, I always have the oldest to text or call. This time, they are together, enjoying all DC has to offer. I don't want to be texting or calling all the time! That really makes me lonely! I'm sure to some people this sounds odd, but I have always enjoyed being a mom and I love time spent with my daughters!
I pride myself in being a mom. I choose to think I am a mom first and foremost and then I am their friend. They know the rules and they respect them. I rarely have to worry about them, because both of them have grown to respect our relationship. I enjoy the time I spend with my girls. Because I don't have a sister to do things with, or even a 'best friend' to gallivant around with, I enjoy the shopping adventures with my girls, the pool time, eating out, watching movies/TV with them. I truly feel lost without one of them being here. From the time I was 17 years old, I took being a mom very seriously. My girls are my responsibility always. I don't know how to act without that every day responsibility over the next few days. Sure I have a lot to do before Wednesday, but to know I don't have to necessarily worry about being here for one of them is a weird, unknown feeling! Of course, I will worry about them, off exploring Washington DC together, but I know they both have a good head on their shoulders and are responsible young ladies!! I'm just hoping for a lot of pictures!!!
I am so thankful that my girls have the relationship they do; a relationship that, at times, I truly envy. Today, it is my hope that everyone who has siblings, whether they be sisters, brothers, or both, truly sit back and appreciate what they have! Many people who are only children or who have lost a sibling would give anything to have what you have. Don't take those relationships for granted....LOVE ONE ANOTHER EVERY DAY!!! Tomorrow is promised to no one.
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