The grass can really be greener...

First of all, let me start off by apologizing for the significant gap since my last post! Bet you thought I fell off the face of the Earth, didn't ya? Well, friends, not quite. It has been a busy two weeks for me, prepping my new surroundings for what promises to be an interesting school year! Since I purchased, and drank, a large caramel iced coffee from McDonald's tonight, I really can not sleep! When I can't sleep, the wheels turn! And when the wheels turn, I decide to write! And when I decide to write, look out!

I've been utterly exhausted the last couple of days! Between the excitement of the new school year starting, the sheer terror of the new school year starting, and finally the acceptance that the new school year did, indeed, start, this girl has been through the emotions from one end to the other! 

So, you know how when you are in a certain set of circumstances, you sometimes wish you were anywhere or anyone else? Yeah, I thought you might understand the whole "The grass is always greener" idea. We always wish for,  what we perceive is, a better circumstance than what we are in. And sometimes, the grass truly IS greener on the other side. I know the cliché is meant to be more like "appreciate what you have rather than what someone else has" kind of thing, but at this moment, the grass, for me, has always been greener on the other side!

I started this whole school year ALMOST wishing I hadn't jumped ship. My first day was pretty tough and I felt as though I floundered my way through it. It was tough being positive yesterday, when I truly felt as though I failed in a big big way. I cried. Ok, ok, ok so I pretty much SOBBED most of the night last night. Gosh darn it, I sobbed from the time my feet hit the parking lot until I fell asleep last night. Yes, it was THAT rough. Please don't judge. I had ALMOST wished I could go back to my high schoolers, where I was comfortable and loved! And then....

I awoke this morning with a renewed sense of that "Go get 'em!" attitude I love so much! I pulled myself up by the bootstraps and trekked to school knowing MY grass was certainly greener now! My ride takes me 12 minutes....not 45! I drive 20.4 miles round trip rather than 50.6! My gas tank is still over half full! And I got hugs today! Sure I had an irritated student at one point, but I got hugs! I am in a fantabulous elementary school that just exudes positivity (it's where I am meant to be) and I feel at home!

Sure I have some brown spots in my little green pasture, but overall the view is lush, green, and happy!!  Yup, friends, the grass is greener for me and I gladly accept some of the difficulties that may lie ahead simply because they truly make me appreciate the wonderful blessings I have been granted!