A day well spent......

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your face

And I...

Tears stream down your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down your face

And I...

This song was played as the last song the Maybabies performed at Mady's Snow Day this evening. When they started it, the floodgates opened and I could not help but just stand, hand over my heart and cry. For a whole host of reasons.

First of all, the song reminds me so much of my little Cancer Warrior Princess, Ella Grace. We tried so hard to fix her....and many people sit and say they will never forget a milestone birthday for this reason or that. Well, I will never forget my 40th birthday because it was the day my little CWP left this earth for a better home. Yup. I will never forget turning 40. 

I also think of my beloved grandmother when I hear this song. After her horrific fall, I so wanted to fix her. I wanted her all better. I wanted my grandma back. I didn't want what was happening to her to be happening. I wanted to fix her. Truth be told, I still do. 

Today, we spent the day at Barley Creek Brewery, celebrating Mady's Snow Day. Honoring the life of Madyson Law, who's life was cut so short in December of 2010. We listened to a plethora of local musicians, who donated their time and talents to help raise money for Mady's Angels. It was a most amazing day. 

There is a small part of me that can't help but feel guilty for having my girls. My heart aches for Mady's mom, Laura. I simply can not imagine my life without one of my girls. My life revolves around them. To have to go through what the Law's have been is just heart wrenching to me. It truly makes me appreciate my daughters THAT much more. 

At the end of the night, we experienced a true snow day! Yes, on August 18, 2013 those in attendance were snowed on! One of Mady's most favorite things in the world was having a snow day! Today was completely in her honor! It was truly humbling to see so many people coming together to raise money for Mady's Angels 

I truly feel like I was part of the greater good tonight. I am humbled beyond words.....and the tears just keep flowing....

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you