There will be days when you feel like the world is crumbling
beneath your feet, as if every good thing you have ever done has been trumped by
something or someone else. There will be days when you wonder if you can keep going
along this path, like you continue to take every wrong turn along the way. There will be days that test your patience and build your
character, days that you simply do whatever it takes to make it through without
hurting someone or saying something you will end up regretting. There will be days when you just want to put your head down
and cry. There will be days when you really want to quit, when you just can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. Today is one of those days for me.
There will be days just like these throughout your life
because you’re human after all. But just remember that it’s on days like this
that the true reflection of who you are shines through. It’s on days like this that you show the
world what you are made of.
To quote one of my favorite storybook characters, Alexander,
“Today was a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day.” My strength, patience,
and fortitude have been tested to their outermost limits today. Today has been
one of those days that has me questioning everything about my life as I know it,
with the exception of my relationships. I’m feeling pretty solid about those,
and it feels good to come home from a day like this to a loving husband, who
allows me to vent! God Bless him.
As my own terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day
progressed on, I received a message on the great book of Faces from a friend
who needed some ‘positive’ advice. It killed me. At that moment in time, I
seriously wanted to say…..’ASK SOMEONE ELSE, MY LIFE SUCKS RIGHT NOW’, but I
did not. I knew I was needed. I knew THIS is why I created Think Thankfully.
This is one of my gifts to the world and there was no way I was letting her
down. I told her I’d message her back when I got home and had a clearer head.
And then it struck me…..
Sometimes it pays to actually take your own advice. Although to be honest, today will probably
not go into the archives of my life as the absolutely worst day of my life, on
a professional level it ranks very high on the list. While many tell me to take all the stuff
being placed before me as an indication of how wonderful my classroom is run,
that does not help me…..the perfectionist, the teacher with the high standards
not just for her students but for herself, the one who feels that no matter how
good I am, I’ll always be dumped on and no one listens. Yes, I’m venting. Yes,
this is my outlet. Do I love my job….yes, but I don’t love the sincere tests of
my ability that I have been up against lately. Today, I’m feeling as though my
best will always get me more frustrations.
I came home today completely stressed with my blood pressure
beginning to skyrocket, tears welling in my eyes, my voice reaching abnormal
altitudes when talking, and I immediately hit the Cool Ranch Doritos (in case
you missed it, I’m a serious stress eater). As I sat here, breaking out the
Microsoft Word to write my frustrations away, it occurred to me that I’d be
giving people some sort of advice with this blog. But what advice would I be
giving when the world seems to be walking all over you? What could I possibly
say to anyone to make a terrible day seem not so terrible? How do I seriously
handle situations (or days) like this? Well, here’s what we do:
We faced the trouble head on. When those worst of days come rushing at us
like an out of control freight train, it never does any good to try to live in
denial of what is happening. At best, it
will just prolong the agony. So what do
we do? We face it. It is there. We cannot deny it or ignore it. For me, I
cannot change the events that are happening. I’ve got absolutely NO CONTROL
over the end result, but I do have control over what happens after and that
might be ok for me. Rather that wallow in self-pity and stress, I will face
what comes along. Perhaps I can be like Superman and just stretch out my arms
and stop it all, but that’s highly unlikely, so face it I will!
We control what we can in the
situation and let the rest of the chips fall where they may. When we face what
we feel might just be the worst day of our life, either we should take control of
what we can or we just accept that there is nothing we can really do.
From time to time, our days will be filled with complete and
utter chaos and frustration. There will be days when we want to pack it in, quit, walk away. There will be times when we cannot control what is
happening, but rather we must deal with the hand that’s dealt us. Face those
difficulties head on. Control what you can. And in the end, realize….’Mom says
there are days like this, even in Australia.’
Until tomorrow, my friends….
Think Thankfully!!!!
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