Let’s go
back in time. The year was 2006. It was the year that changed everything in my
life. A year I haven't talked too much about, until now...
I had not
been feeling well as the year 2006 was happily
rung in. I’d been having some ‘girlie’ trouble in addition to a very rocky
marriage that was wearing on my very soul. Happiness seemed like a concept that
happened to everyone else, just not me. In January, I had decided to do
something about the way I had been feeling and I went to see the doctor, something
I have very rarely done in my life, because I always associate doctors with bad
news.
After
rounds of exams and testing, February 21 brought me the news I never wanted to
hear. I was diagnosed with non-invasive Cervical Cancer. I was a young mother,
raising two daughters ages 8 and 15, and in a marriage that was heading for
disaster. Just what that disaster would be happened only 4 days later when my
then husband would move out, leaving me with a ton of emotional baggage that I
was unsure I could handle.
From
February through August, I had been having all kinds of procedures done, in
hopes of eradicating the cancer and being able to move on with my life. No such
luck. With every test came the results, “Sorry, you have to come back in and do
this again, we just didn’t get it.” 6 months of being uncomfortable, feeling
dirty, just plain yucky, all the while dealing with the start of what would be a
rather nasty divorce.
It was during that 6 month period I would find my true love, my forever love, my soulmate. My
current husband was like my knight in shining armor, coming to rescue me at a
point in my life that I was in desperate need of being rescued.
It was also during that 6 months, on July 10, 2006 to be exact, Dorothy Gulbenkian Blaney, who for 17 years was president of Cedar Crest College in Allentown, PA died at the age of 65, after battling cervical cancer for two years. This was a very real fear of mine. I did NOT want to die. I lived with this fear every day, but it was at that time, I decided I would do what I had to do in order to LIVE. I found out just how strong I was when faced with this very real fear.
It was also during that 6 months, on July 10, 2006 to be exact, Dorothy Gulbenkian Blaney, who for 17 years was president of Cedar Crest College in Allentown, PA died at the age of 65, after battling cervical cancer for two years. This was a very real fear of mine. I did NOT want to die. I lived with this fear every day, but it was at that time, I decided I would do what I had to do in order to LIVE. I found out just how strong I was when faced with this very real fear.
July passed
and we headed into August of 2006. I was in Disney with my parents, my
daughters, and my brother and his family. It was a trip that my little brother
and my parents took us on to help take my mind off of what was happening in my
life. It was on this trip that I received the word from the doctor that, once
again, I had to set up an appointment for more procedures because, ONCE AGAIN,
the last one performed before we left for our trip, did not take care of the problem. Apparently I had a
very stubborn cancer cell. What that stubborn cancer cell didn’t know was that
it was residing in the body of one stubborn woman.
I did make
the appointment with my doctor, but rather than have another (unsuccessful in
my mind) procedure, I told the doctor it was time for surgery. I had discussed
this with my mother during our trip and the choice was made. If I had a system
in my body that: 1.) was stricken with
cancer, making me sick and 2.) was really serving me no purpose anymore (I wasn’t having any
more children), then it was time to get rid of it and become healthy again.
September
18, 2006 I had a hysterectomy and had the cancer removed from my body for
good. No sign of cancer has ever returned. Today is my 10 year anniversary of that
amazing decision that saved my life. September 18 can, kind of, be considered a
special ‘birthday’ of sorts for me, because it was on this day that I was given
that new chance at life. 2006 was the year that changed everything. I was rid of a
marriage that was causing me more heartache than happiness, I was rid of cancer
that was causing me to be so sick, and I found the love of my life and began a
new life in a new direction. And I was able to LIVE!
Until next
time….happy 10th birthday of a new life to me!
im happy for you
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